Not sure if any of my friends here are in Paris but couldn’t rest tonight without reaching out to say a little prayer for you. If you follow me and are in Paris please check in. I for some reason have in my head that I have interacted with a few people from Paris or France. My apologies, I’m very bad with names. Prayers for this world we live in.
Less than healthy food
So yesterday I touched on my less than healthy eating over the past week. We were on vacation and so busy it was hard to get a good meal. Even with the best of intentions it rarely happened. So what I noticed during this time was how much my skin changed, how bad I felt, how yucky my stomach felt in general, along other random yuckiness. My energy level was low and I found myself tired for no good reason. So it was all the bad food I was eating. Well not even really that bad just not something I’ve been eating nor had intended to eat. That was the only thing that changed. I ate crap and I felt like crap. Duh!
Somewhere during the beginning of my journey I read about how long it takes to get bad food out of your system. I wish I could find that.
I can’t wait to get back to my healthy eating self. I mean I’m healthy eating now but my body hasn’t caught back up yet. And I’ve found myself hungry for ridiculous things too. Like french fries, chocolate, baked items, these are things I never eat too. So I’m screwed up here! And I can’t believe I did this to myself. One week of eating badly and I feel like I’m going to spend at least 2 weeks getting over it. Why do we do these things to ourselves? Do we not realize just because it’s easy to grab a burger or run through a drive thru it is easy for a reason? There is no thought process. There is no caring nature being put into these foods. So if they don’t care, you don’t care, what makes us believe our body will care? We need to care about what we do to ourselves. Think about it! We are working so hard, shouldn’t we strive to stay on track! I know this is a process and I am winning but it still frustrates me at how easy it is to screw ourselves up if we aren’t careful.
Being busy is not cool, and news
It’s been a busy time in my world. Last week was our last vacation. A working vacation too. We painted, closed the pool, odds and ends, changed oil in cars (my husband did this). I finished a big order of invitations for a baby baptism and then had to get ready for a craft fair. Yes it’s that time. Craft fairs and bazaars galore! My eating was horrid. I pretty much ate whatever was handy because we were busy. By the end of the week I was sick with crap food and begging for a salad. Luckily I didn’t gain any weight. How I have no earthly idea. I even checked on a second set of scales. So I’m back at it this week and already feeling better. It’s funny how your body responds to unhealthy foods.
Back to work this week, back on track.
My daughter had big news tonight. It’s her birthday and her boyfriend of two years proposed. He did it in the mountains in a little church. I would have loved to have seen it. What a special day. She turned 20 today too. I wish them only the best. He’s a good boy, I’m happy for them. This was something we were expecting as he had asked my husband’s permission a few weeks ago. Such a sweet gesture. There are still those men out there, who knew? I thought my husband was one of the last few to do such a thing. 😉 And the ring? It’s amazing. Stunning really. It’s really been a wild few weeks.
Hopefully I’m back to my old self though. Time to get serious and get this weight off. I’m missing everyone else. Hopefully if you are reading out there you will update soon. I need your motivation. BADLY MY FRIENDS….
Weigh Day and the weekend
To start the weekend off right and with a bang I was a loser. Not a big loser but a pound is something right? That brings my total to 36. I think I’ve lost and gained and played around with that 36th pound for awhile now. Hopefully it’s out of here. I’ve not been feeling my best this weekend. I think it might be the season change. I’ve had the dizziness back and some double vision. It comes and goes so I’m thinking it might be related to an instance I had a few days ago with some lighting. I don’t do flashing lights and I was stuck in traffic from a wreck, unfortunately the lights were right at me for a good 15 minutes. Things haven’t been exactly right since. I wasn’t in the wreck, just in the traffic while it was being taken care of. Hopefully this will pass soon. I actually became a little motion sick on the bike over the weekend. That’s not going to work at all. I’ve since been on the bike and all is well, so maybe it’s working it’s way out.
Halloween was fun. I handed out candy. This is the first year the kids didn’t want to hand any out. Party poopers. I like to see the little princesses. Kids are so cute. I wanted to tell them not to eat to much candy though or they might look like me in a few years. Ha! But I didn’t. After all it wasn’t candy that put me in this body. It was kids and life. It was taking care of everyone else’s needs and not realizing I needed to pay attention to my own needs. I’ve never wanted to put myself out there and really stand up and say I need to do something for myself. So when I don’t watch a certain show with one of the kids or don’t eat what everyone else is eating, they notice. And here comes the guilt. Or here did come the guilt. Not anymore though. They know I’m doing this for myself and for them. My health was out of control. I felt bad all the time, I had no energy, I was sick, headaches constantly (this was something else entirely but still), grumpy, and I hurt. There is still so much weight to go but I know I can do this. Things are different this time. I don’t feel rushed. I’m not overly anxious or anything. I want to do this the right way. Hopefully in doing it the right way by summer I will be closer to where I want to be and it will feel more natural and not like I’m just another ‘dieter’. Here’s to all of us having a great week.
23 weeks on Weight Watchers.
Weigh day tomorrow
I’ve been on the bike every night for 8-9 miles religiously. Not sure if I mentioned this but my treadmill is broken. It not fixable at this point so I’m going to get another but haven’t been able to afford the one I want just yet. With all the rain we have had its been impossible to walk lately too. I’m not going to let that dampen (haha you like that do ya) my spirits though. I don’t believe I will be down this week. Not making excuses mind you just happen to think of this today. I do however believe I am still in this. And here’s why. The new jeans I purchased the other week are already feeling loose. And I can tell when I sit down there’s not so much of me. Silly as that sounds. It’s not because I have worn these jeans and they are stretched either. Even after a wash they feel like a good fit and a loose comfortable. Also, and here’s a big big biggie, I sat down talking to a friend yesterday and I crossed my leg! What?!?! Yep I crossed my leg just like a dainty little prisspot. I didn’t make a whole thing of it but it did make me sit up a little straighter and it made feel like I needed to ask where my servants were. *giggle* So if those dang scales hate me tomorrow I do not care. I love me today. And I’m still in this.
Weigh day, weekend and lifesaver gummies
I have the distinct feeling this is how my Monday is going to go. The kids I have in school were out last week for fall break so they are back in session this week. (The kid I have out of school thinks the whole fall break for a week was ridiculous since she never got to do that.) 😉 Cue stressful mornings again. Yay! Said nobody ever. It was such a screwed up week last week that I forgot to weigh on Friday so I didn’t weigh until Saturday morning. I didn’t lose anything. I didn’t really expect to because I never was able to workout properly for one and for two, I didn’t get to eat right. I eat well, I just didn’t eat enough. It was grab a yogurt here or a fruit there. I had very little substance and my protein was not good at all. Also I don’t eat candy. I’ve never been much of one for candy but my husband brought me a gummy lifesaver ring thingy for Halloween candy treat thing that someone gave him, holy crap! Best little piece of sugary bad for you ever! What he was thinking I have no idea. He was probably being sweet and what I was thinking eating it was another more probing question. And here’s an even better question, why did I go buy a bag?!?! For the kids? Yea right….
So I’m staying away from this bag of sugary goodness as much as I can and going to get back on track this week. I should be more stressed than I am I think. But the way I look at it, this is suppose to be a lifestyle change correct? I’m trying not to be on a diet. I want to do this all the time and teach my kids to do this too. We should want to take care of ourselves. We regularly maintain our vehicles, our homes, so why not ourselves? Eating a little naughty is part of life, I think how we handle it sets things apart. And that’s where I really want to kick this in the butt. I hope this week finds me on the right track. And anyone else that dares to be bored with my ramblings. Have a great day!
22 weeks and counting on Weight Watchers…let’s do this Oprah!
No way!
I’m still in shock. Let me quickly start from the beginning.
On Thursday I needed to wear jeans to work because it was chilly. So the pair I really like that fit well were dirty so I got out another pair I figured would fit. Well they didn’t. Not even close. They fell off. So I finally found a pair I hate that are to big but I put on a belt and off I went. I stopped at Kohl’s due to them having a sale and just thought I might browse. I ended up learning I have dropped 4 jean sizes. 4 sizes!!! I even tried on different cuts and everything but, I was over the moon.
So the next day is weigh day. I get on the scale and learn I have lost another pound bringing my total to 35 lbs. 35 lbs in 20 weeks. I could be so much better but I am tickled to death.
So here are a few of my small victories from this week and weekend:
- Dropped another pound
- Purchased 2 pair of pants saved $45
- Purchased a shirt a size smaller too
- Had 3 people notice my weightloss and want to talk about it.
- Went to the TN Titans game today, didn’t even get upset or overcome with the walk in or out.
- Was worried all week about all the food/points I used but still lost. Did the right thing in the end. Lesson learned.
- My husband told me I looked great and that he was proud of me. (Worth more than all the other’s)
- I have felt more accomplished this week.
Still can’t fit into those dang pink pants though. Even 4 sizes later. The good news is that I can get them on and up. My who-ha is covered but there will be no wearing anywhere just yet. It’s coming though. Just wait…
Starting 21 weeks w/Weight Watchers.
It’s been 20 weeksÂ
Wouldn’t it be nice to have a free day? A truly free day. One where you don’t feel guilty for taking off work or you don’t have appointments or you don’t have a thousand things to do for other people? I can’t imagine living a dream like this. It seems like all I do these last couple of months is run run run. If it’s not kids, it’s work, school stuff, craft fair stuff, life stuff, etc. I’m tired. I need a day to do nothing. Of course I also need a chef to cook me healthy food so since neither thing is happening I will leave my fantasy world and jet back to reality. 😉
I have increased my food with good healthy foods. Increasing my protein mostly. It made me kind of sick at first but I’m feeling a little better today. I’m using more of my points and working out, of course the working out was never the problem. I’ve increased my water again to about where I was during the hottest part of summer. Only thing about doing this though, I’ve had to set reminders. Strange I know but whatever works right? If I’m not thirsty I will forget to drink. Also I don’t drink anything but water or coffee so it’s not like soft drinks are a factor here. I’m just forgetting to drink my water. But that’s going to be an easy fix. I’m just afraid the scales might show an increase now and that will totally freak me out. But I believe it will work itself out in the end because I’m fixing the problem for the better. We shall see anyway. Happy Monday, glad it’s in the books it was a doozy.
It’s been 20 weeks since I started this journey. Hard to believe. 34 lbs down in 20 weeks. I’m not sure that’s great in some eyes but I’m pleased. Someone talked about not comparing journeys the other day and I have thought so much about this. I never realized how much I have been doing this. That’s not fair to me. So I have tried to make a conscious effort to stop doing that. Nobody gained my weight the exact way I did so what makes me think they will lose the way I will lose. Nobody really knows my story and I don’t know their’s all we can do is offer our support in the end and be a cheerleader when we can. Thanks for sticking with me the past 20 weeks hopefully we all kick some butt for many weeks to come.
Weigh day and I lost
Yep I lost a pound WOOHOO!!!! I will take it. I’ve had so many people mention how thin I look today. What an ego boost for sure. I still say I’m not eating enough so I’m redoing my eating agenda. I’m going to add more protein of course. I need to practice what I preach anyway, right? I’ve already upped my water from last week. The only real trouble I have is time. I just don’t always have a lot of it, who does right? This weekend I’m going to arm myself with some knowledge of things I can do to cut down on the stress I’m putting myself through just to eat right. If it means setting aside a few hours Saturday early morning or Sunday during football to do it then so be it. I can’t live like I’m living right now. I’m working to hard to let this discourage me and I can feel myself becoming discouraged. Best to stop this now, today, in its tracks.
Starting 20 weeks? Whoa! 😳👑🎉
Tomorrow is weigh day, question
In the event I do not lose weight I feel like I might have figured out what is going on but I am unclear how to fix it. I don’t think I’m eating enough. Sounds stupid right? Well here’s the thing, when the kids were out of school I had so many options for dinner and lunch and life was relaxed. We had fresh vegetables and fruits. We could sit down and eat. Now I can’t sit down or stand up and have a free freaking thought! I’m running a child here or there, my husband has been sick all week, he hasn’t even worked two days this week and when he has worked he walks in and eats and goes to sleep. It must be nice. Meanwhile I’m killing myself with kids, food preparation, homework, laundry, life, kids, life, life, adult life, whining, etc! It’s not been a good week. I have managed to ride my bike as hard as I can manage though. Mostly out of sheer frustration for 8 miles each night but 1. Granted it has been a chore each time but I’ve done it. I need help with the meal problem though. I have time to cook for them but them is one thing, me is another. I don’t do frozen meals very well either due to high sodium so that’s rarely an option. I’ve been grabbing salad, I usually always have salad fixed. Or yogurt has been my go to since forever also. This is not a meal though. I’m walking away from my day each day leaving anywhere from 15-20 Weight Watcher points on the table and I really believe this is holding me back. So does anyone have any advice? Granted I’ve not weighed of course but even if I have lost I’m still struggling with eating. Quick, healthy and not gross is hard to find. Haha!
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